July 16, 2006 I guess I'd get used to this somehow.
I wondered about after class and had to ask for directions about 5times. Out of which some didn't have any clue either. So I wondered around like a lost soul and ended up taking a bus somewhere. Called Val like 10times for half an hour and she didn't pick up. And since those I called didn't pick up, I boarded the bus home and cried because I didn't want to go home. Felt like staying downstair by the pool but the thought of that sadako well just freaks me out.
Sometimes I wish I'd be forgotten so people like my parents will stop calling me whenever I don't feel like entertaining calls. But anyway they bought the vacuum and I shall busy myself with the new toy tomorrow.
I wish I could disappear. I've got a habit to rid before it becomes an obsession. I guess it's been a trying and tiring day. I'm tired but I know I won't be able to sleep that easily still. So I shall just lay on bed and hope to sleep early. I hate the feeling but I guess I've just got to bear with it and continue to wish that somehow, someday, things will turn out to be better.
Somehow I think this character of mine will someday scare everyone away and I hope it'd not turn out that way.